there's so many things i want/need to do to over the next few weeks that every time i try to wrap my mind around them all i get dizzy. three days of baby jake, coupled with the seismic disruption of my party, plus two Stories demanding my attention, not to mention the emotional turmoil of my internet doohickey breaking (there, april, i used the word doohickey again just for you!) have left me feeling discombulated and very off-center.
it's not a space i like to be in, but it seems to fit the season - the warmer the sun and the longer the days, the more i feel the energy roiling just beneath the surface.
one thing that i have learned from my friend doreen is to ask myself a question every day. my question tends to be the same from day to day - what's my priority today?
i sat and breathed that question in and out for a few minutes while i watched the sun rise and listened to the birds, and tried out different answers as they came to me. the one that sat the best was to focus my attention today on my outer world, and to spend tomorrow blissfully engaged in more inner work. this morning, however, after a mindful breakfast and a few minutes of yoga, i will work on both my article, and my chapter five.
i know i'm pushing chapter five, but i'm really enjoying the story right now and its the thing i want to do the most. on the other hand, i'm aware that the Angels have been trying to get my attention - i think that's WHY the doohickey burned out. (look, april, i did it again!)
and furthermore, the war must end. blessed be.