Thursday, March 26, 2009

thousand-thought thursday

there's so many things i want/need to do to over the next few weeks that every time i try to wrap my mind around them all i get dizzy. three days of baby jake, coupled with the seismic disruption of my party, plus two Stories demanding my attention, not to mention the emotional turmoil of my internet doohickey breaking (there, april, i used the word doohickey again just for you!) have left me feeling discombulated and very off-center.

it's not a space i like to be in, but it seems to fit the season - the warmer the sun and the longer the days, the more i feel the energy roiling just beneath the surface.

one thing that i have learned from my friend doreen is to ask myself a question every day. my question tends to be the same from day to day - what's my priority today?

i sat and breathed that question in and out for a few minutes while i watched the sun rise and listened to the birds, and tried out different answers as they came to me. the one that sat the best was to focus my attention today on my outer world, and to spend tomorrow blissfully engaged in more inner work. this morning, however, after a mindful breakfast and a few minutes of yoga, i will work on both my article, and my chapter five.

i know i'm pushing chapter five, but i'm really enjoying the story right now and its the thing i want to do the most. on the other hand, i'm aware that the Angels have been trying to get my attention - i think that's WHY the doohickey burned out. (look, april, i did it again!)

and furthermore, the war must end. blessed be.


mrsb said...

The warmer weather brings my energy around as well. Seems like everyone has so much on their plate right now! Don't forget to take time to breathe and relax, too!

Granny Annie said...

Sounds like you and I feel about the same way. My life seems to be a game of jump rope. All these invitations to DO SOMETHING are whirling around me and and can't decide when to jump in.

Walk in the Woods said...

Yeah ... every day I ask, "What's on Top?" - usually three times, just to get / get focus my top three priorities for the day. :)

And those doohickeys (or is it doohickies?) can be maddening, eh?

(I have to get going on my DO article too!)

Have a beautiful day, beautiful friend!

Stacy (the Random Cool Chick) said...

I absolutely can relate - so much to do, where to start? :) The internet doohickey breaking would definitely cause emotional turmoil... ;)

Lynette said...

your right

and baby jake is always on top!
(we all love him)

take time to enjoy

rest well

Dina said...

after a warm winter we are getting ready for a blizzard which will probably have us stuck in the house for the next two days...maybe i will finally be forced to slow down a bit

April said...

Doohickey, are seriously cracking me up! Thanks for the shout out, my friend! LOL!

It's so easy to feel overwhelmed at times by everything on your "must do" gets longer by the second! Just take a breather, Annie, and realize that you are only one person and you can only do so much at one time. Tomorrow is a new day!

Hope your doohickey doesn't break anymore...hee,hee...right back atcha!

Amy said...

I like you should take it one step at a time. It will all be okay.

Divaeva said...

ah yes - I know exactly what you mean - I have an day off today - on my list are oil change, return some items I bought through the internet, reutrn a shirt a bought that lost a button in the first hour of wearing it, listen to Rose's show, clean kitchen, gym, grocery shop, etc... I bet the only thing Iget done is listening to Roses show *laughs* I love my lazt "do nothing" days!

I am Harriet said...

Hi Annie.
I love reading your stuff :)

Is that what you look like :()

Teneal said...

I seem to have those kinds of days with unnerving regularity. Those days where the thoughts within the mind swirl so rapidly that it takes all one's strength to remain upright.

Well done to you for making it productive! Oh and I hope the radio-show went well :)

Juls said...

Good luck on your various endeavors. I think that writing sounds like a great thing to do today. :-) And I love that you let your kids drive early.... Being the oldest of 5, my parents allowed me to drive the younger kids when I was 15.... Of course, I drove more of necessity than just for kicks--but I still loved it.

Martha said...

I hope you find your center soon.

Bee and Rose said...

I think that we're all feeling the spring vibe! What should we "spring upon" today? I feel like my "doohickey" needs some help too! lol!

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